I am traumatized by past experience at hospitals?
So in the past year I have been hospitalized in five different hospitals due to an undiagnosed illness with symptoms of loss of appetite, weight loss, nausea, and vomiting. They have tested for everything and found nothing. I am a very skinny teenage girl to begin with. And no, I don’t think I’m fat and I don’t want to lose weight. Anyways, I was admitted into John Hopkins and the doctor thought that it was best for me to go into a nutrition program at an eating disorder unit in another hospital. I was supposed to be there for ten days but when I got there, the doctors of course automatically assumed you are sent there due to an eating disorder. So they thought that I wasn’t eating because I didn’t want to, not because I was feeling sick. I ended up being there for two months. Hardly any family visits, or phone calls, or showers, or clean clothes. I never felt so abandoned in my life. I get so sad thinking about it, and it haunts me. I don’t like eating in front of people now because I’m scared that if I don’t eat enough they will think I have an ED and then send me back to that place and be locked away from society even longer
What should I do?



